The FBI recovered Brian Laundrie's disturbing notes and drawings from his family home - as the family of his murdered fiancée Gabby Petitosent a searing message to his 'mastermind' mom.
Files obtained by the New York Post showed Laundrie had written about wanting to kill and self-immolate himself months before he began dating Petito.
'About a year ago I went in to a type of mania where I was smashing holes in the wall with my head, kicking throug (sic) paintings, tearing whatever I was working on, pouring gasoline on myself to burn alive but getting the lighter wet, parking out in murderland listening to Mac [unclear, but may be 'DeMarco'] with a gun to my head, wrestling alligators,' Laundrie wrote in his diary on October 26, 2018.
'I wanted to die and the weird thing is nothing's changed, but the [timer's] running down.'
'Under the mattress I'm on is a loaded 357 magnum revolver. Apull of the trigger and all my problems will be over,' he wrote.
Disturbing notes and drawings were recovered during a raid of Brian Laundrie's family home after the body of his murdered fiancée Gabby Petito was found
Brian had murdered Gabby in Wyoming on a cross-country 'van life' road trip in 2021
Two years later, Laundrie and Petito embarked on their fateful cross-country road trip where it would later be revealed that he strangled his fiancée to death.
In an undated diary entry Laundrie described a nightmare he had which appeared to be about Petito leaving him.
'The ocean pours out of her blue eyes and the fire is out. With one word the pain is gone. "Brian?,"' Laundrie wrote.
'Oh how sweet she is to say we should get together, but you know when you walk out that door she’ll be gone forever again. Your (sic) back in the car, haunted by the eyes you’ll never look into again.'
'The pain burns fresh because you know it’s just tonight. You wake up and your (sic) both free,' Laundrie wrote.
Other items the FBI collected include hundreds of bullets, several magazines, and a bill of sale and handbooks for Ruger .380 and Glock 49 mm pistols and a compound bow fitted with a rifle scope.
Reading material found includedcopies of 'The Watchtower,' an illustrated religious magazine published by New-York based Jehovah’s Witnesses, andChuck Palahniuk’s novel, 'Choke,' about a scam artist who pretends to choke on food to earn sympathy checks from others.
Months before the couple started dating,Laundrie had written about wanting to kill and self-immolate himself
Gabby's family ripped into Brian Laundrie's mother by using the words she wrote in a letter to her son to raise money for domestic violence victim
Gabby's family ripped into Brian Laundrie's mother by using the words she wrote in a letter to her son to raise money for domestic violence victims.
Brian had murdered Gabby in Wyoming on a cross-country 'van life' road trip in 2021. He later went missing and after a manhunt, was found dead in Florida.
An undated letter from his mother Roberta had 'burn after reading' written on the envelope andsaid that she would 'dispose of a body' if needed because she loved him so much.
Gabby's mother,Nichole Schmidt, and stepmother, Tara Petito wore matching shirts with 'burn after reading' emblazoned in the front to CrimeCon2024 in Nashville over the weekend, Fox News reported.
Schmidt accused Laundrie's mother Roberta of being 'the mastermind' who 'shattered her family' during a talk at the event.
'As for you, Roberta, and I call you out individually because you are evidently the mastermind that shattered your family and mine with your evil ways, I see no empathy in your eyes,' she said.
'No remorse in your heart and no willingness to take responsibility for your actions.'
The 'burn after reading' shirts are being sold on the Gabby Petito Foundation website where proceeds go to organizations that support locating missing persons and to provide aid to organizations that assist victims of domestic violence.
Schmidtshocked the packed auditorium saying, 'I speak for myself here when I say Brian, I forgive you.'
'I needed to release myself from the chains of anger and bitterness, and I refuse to let your despicable act define the rest of my life.'
Gabby's mother, Nichole Schmidt (left), and stepmother, Tara Petito (right) wore matching shirts with 'burn after reading' emblazoned in the front to CrimeCon2024 in Nashville
Schmidt never had the chance to face her daughter's killer who strangled her during a cross-country trip in 2021 and then killed himself, leaving a note confessing.
The Petitos sued the parents of Laundrie and accused them of knowing that their son had murdered Gabby, and helping him with the coverup of her death.
The Petito family was seeking damages of at least $100,000 and hoped to hold Christopher and Roberta Laundrie accountable for their actions and choices.
Petito's remains were found at Wyoming's Bridger-Teton National Forest in September 2021 and her death was ruled a homicide by manual strangulation.
On October 20 2021, Brian Laundrie's remains were found and he was later concluded to have shot himself.
The FBI was subsequently able to find that he had written in a notebook that he was responsible for the death of Ms. Petito.
